We had an argument tonight. It was one of those things where there's no getting over it. I just have to suck it up. Angry and hurt, I went off to a wedding. There, I bumped into Pom's cousin. It was completely unexpected. And looking at him reminded me of 2007, of what I felt and who I used to be. I don't know why I feel so anguished. Maybe it's partly due to the wedding and the in-your-face reminder that I might not get married or that if I do, my dad won't be there to walk my down the aisle. Or maybe it's the fact that we argued and there was no resolution, and that everytime we fight I doubt us a little. Or just maybe missing the one who got away. In other news, I was forced to down a glass of bubbly. I made it almost half the way before I ended up spitting the rest all over my perpetrator. I feel physically sick now. Maybe it's befitting of the mood I'm in. I can't take this right now.

posted by beautiful at 11:01 am