Ling and I went to watch a play today about a certain famous porn star. I'm not sure what to make of it on the artistic level, but one question struck me somewhere in the middle. The big question of Christian hypocrisy. Maybe not so much a question as an accusation, sometimes. It's not always voiced out, but the implication simmers quietly. I know sometimes I feel like one. And with that comes the proverbial Catholic guilt. And I hate feeling this way. It is a maddening, alienating feeling and sadly, I think, a very natural aspect of my faith. But it's not going to turn me away. I am just a girl trying to do her best to live a life I can live with. How else is it supposed to be?

posted by beautiful at 9:39 am