Obviously God has grand plans for my life, because I made it through today. This morning I was petrified, but now I am halfway through my exams. God rocks. I should do okay for the morning paper. Unless of course the lecturer takes issue with the fact that I took issue with his question and decided to answer it based on what I knew rather than on what he was asking.

I saw Zhisheng just before my second paper today, and I was thinking about how happy I always am to see him. I know how maniacal this sounds but really, he reminds me of very good times, of a time when I was very happy indeed.

I had a really queer ass dream last night. I dreamt that one of my friends died. Not that this is an anomaly, because I have morbid thoughts and dreams all the freaking time, I just don't really talk about them unless I'm deliberately doing the Wednesday Addams routine. I found the grave, and when I saw it I burst into tears. I've never actually burst into tears in my entire life, I've never had that kind of audible grief escape from me. It looks as if my subconscious doesn't even know what I want.

I'm going to watch reruns of Grey's Anatomy. I bloody deserve it.

posted by beautiful at 4:49 am