Some emotions cannot be repressed. When you miss someone what's that emotion called?

The highlight of my week was sitting in his car again. Mindless chatter about the future. Wishing the journey were longer, wishing Singapore was bigger, wishing there would be a jam, anything.

You know how sometimes when someone does stupid things, it's only 'ha ha' funny? How did he make me laugh so hard with a line like 'your car is dirty'? Genius. Or maybe I'm just missing human contact.

posted by beautiful at 5:04 am

I feel like I'm experiencing life in the fastest lane while I'm high on drugs... almost to the point where it doesn't matter what's ahead because it will come to pass anyway.

The cool weather has brought back some really great memories. Last Christmas, Australia, being younger. I'm looking forward to new memories. Let it be good, don't prove me wrong the second time round. Ok, maybe I'm asking to be deluded. Or maybe I'm just looking at this from the wrong perspective.

Change my heart, not my circumstance. I can brave anything, no matter how bad, with Your strength in me. Bending my heart to Your will. Watching for the signs of the times...

Advent is coming.

posted by beautiful at 3:45 am

Striking a Hard Bargain

Two months ago I remember thinking how I'd give anything to be given my life back. And now that I've gotten what I wanted...

It's funny how the better you do in school, the harder you want to work. To the point of obsessing over 5%, and maybe still not getting it right. Now that I think of it I find it quite funny.

Here's a shout out to love. HELLO! When are you going to walk this way? (Take your time, really, it's ok.) 11am. Mid-lecture break. Toilet confabulation. Discovering that perhaps I don't have a problem with men. Maybe men have a problem with me.

And you know what? That's not MY problem anymore. ;)

posted by beautiful at 6:11 am