Here are the 100 things I want in a guy.

1. he must have good manners cos first impressions coun
2. he must have a firm handshake and a pleasant countenanc
3. he should be gallant
4. he should be sincere
5. he shouldn't put up false fronts
6. he should not think too much
7. he must not be a SNAG
8. he must not be too vain
9. but he must dress decently
10. or else surrender completely to my fashion dictates
11. he must be masculine.. ie. not be fair, pasty, the kind who doesnt get down n dirty n sweaty
12. he should be lean, not too skinny but not too built
13. he shld be intelligent. i want mindsex.
14. he shld be compassionate
15. he shld treat his elders with respect
16. he shld not be a slave to material trappings
17. he shld own a car to drive me around
18. he shld be smart enough to see the irony in points 16 and 17
19. and then be humorous enough to laugh abt it with me
20. i want a sense of humour
21. and a sense of fun
22. he should not take things too seriously
23. but have a strong moral centre
24. he shld have e same ideals as i do
25. he shld be catholic...
26. or else willing to come to church w me n fetch my kids to sunday school
27. he doesnt have to have a degree...
28. but he has to have a serious,mature attitude towards his work, whatever he does...
29. he must be responsible n take ownership for his life
30. he must never make me wait
31. he must never step on my shoes
32. he must know when to shut up when im in a bad mood
33. he must learn how to handle me...
34. without manipulating or controlling me
35. he must get along with my friends n family n earn their respect
36. he must never whine to me abt how life is unfair or i'll slap him senseless
37. he shld like animals
38. he shld like cars
39. he shldnt be too prim n proper...
40. he shld know that anything more than a handful is a waste
41. he shld wear tight pants at my bidding
42. he shld never dye his hair
43. he shld have hobbies n passions
44. he shld have direction in life
45. but not be obsessive abt the little details
46. he shld understand murphy's law..
47. he shld be patient
48. he shld like Suede n name them as one of his fav bands
49. however i dont want him to be all groupie-ish about any band, celebrity, movie, etc
50. ..unless it has special significance.. eg. he grew up listening to bee gees or something
51. he shld not smoke.. esp not social smoke
52. he shld not take drugs, but i dont mind if he's tried n didnt like it
53. he shld never ever get drunk
54. he shld live in moderation...
55. he shld have big eyes..
56. he shld be honest
57. he shld read extensively... not just politics.. or worse.. literature
58. he shld have a sense of rhythm..
59. n no way am i leading him on e dancefloor..
60. he shld not be a fashion victim
61. he shld not spout idiotic cliches like 'purple is a sexually deprived colour'
62. he shld speak good english
63. he shld spell impeccably
64. he shld choose snooker over scrabble..
65. ...most of the time
66. he shld like hamsters for my sake
67. he shld like travelling
68. he shld be older by at least 2 yrs
69. he shld not have macho shit friends
70. he shld be in touch w his roots.. ie. speak his own dialect.. be fluent in mother tongue
71. he shld surprise me
72. but not be schizophrenic
73. he shld never be as anal as me
74. he shld live in the east.. he shld worship e east..
75. he shld be humble
76. he shld enjoy doing inane things
77. he shld be able to talk to me.
78. and frisk my soul..
79. he shld be my best friend
80. he shld never sneeze in my face.. or hold my hands with the hand he just coughed into
81. he shld be independent
82. he shld encourage me
83. he shld inspire me to change for the better
84. he shld love freely and openly...
85. he shld not be afraid to say wats on his mind..
86. but he shld never abuse that freedom to hurt someone..
87. he shld know that a woman's place is in the home.. spare me the equality bullshit
88. he mustnt be a pompous intellectual
89. he must not put others down
90. he shldn't sell out to the typical singaporean mindset of 5Cs.. education is impt.. PAP is king.. etc..
91. he shld noe how to ease all my paranoia
92. he shld be proud of me
93. he shld however, not write me poems.. cos i cant stand tt
94. he shld never ever hit me
95. he shld love me for wat i am.. big hair and all
96. he shld embrace life n live it!!!!
97. he must help me to see different perspectives other than my own
98. he must be my pillar of support..
99. and let me be his
100. he must believe in the power of love
     

posted by beautiful at 6:55 am

Less than 72 hours and I am, in the words of 2 different has-been boybands, back for good. That's not to say it was a bad experience, because it wasn't. I did however discover that all this while, I have had a better experience right here, and I never knew it till I left. The irritations, the fighting for the bathroom, the noisy fish tanks and pulsating beats vs. the silence, the barren corridors, the feeling you get coming back to an empty room. We have a clear winner.

How fortunate I am to have discovered the difference. To know that I make a difference.

Maybe I should give up expectations once and for all. You don't have to be perfect to stake a claim on my life. You don't have to do things on my terms. You don't have to make things easy for me. And for all this, I should love you anyway, seventy seven times and more.

posted by beautiful at 12:56 am

I surprised myself with the oddity of saying 'Happy National Day' to my American neighbour. It's my National Day. I have many memories of the 9th of August. Could this be a defining moment? Could it be in my blood?

I wonder what the people downstairs are getting so excited about. The fireworks tonight? The fact that it's been a long weekend and they've just got back with spoils of war from KL, Bangkok, wherever it's cheap and convenient to jet set to? Why all the red shirts and white shorts. Real patriotism? I'd like to know.

I have suspicions. It looks like propaganda to me, but I won't be disclosing my theories and passing them off as facts. But I'd still like to take a look inside their hearts and see what's there--maybe it will make me feel better about myself.

posted by beautiful at 1:50 am