My first public orgasm took place at 6.30pm today at the Marmalade Pantry. It is sin in a physical form. My front tooth is still reeling from the shock.

posted by beautiful at 8:13 am

This is going to be yet another horribly angsty post about how much I wish I were there and not here. Walking along the stretch facing the Fullerton and the CBD in the background caused a pang in my heart. I wanted to be there with you. I wanted to see that building that tells the day, time and current air temperature. I wanted to stand up after every meal and pull on a thick jacket. So I asked myself, what will I do every time I feel like this? Buy an air ticket or what?

I have to get my degree. Hustle hustle hustle. In the mean time I must be strong.

In the mean time stop taking life so seriously. Why do you want a career? Why must you deliberate every single step, calculate every move, envision every statement on your resume, then tell me that I'm the paranoid one?

I'm not saying I want to be balanced out by some orange bracelet. But I want focus, and I cannot get this from anyone else. I'll turn to God, and I'll turn to my music, and I'll shut out modern day dictatorship.

In the mean time I'll be fighting.

posted by beautiful at 10:13 am