I've drunk too much, to belong to you
feel so much older, but I'm only 22
she said she was an artist when I met her on the street
she sleeps right through the afternoon and throws up on the sheet
she took me to a hotel where she watched the evenings end
cried into her coffee swearing she was on a mend
two tortured souls digging a hole, when we need to cry
I wish I had your heart instead of mine, instead of mine
I took a nightbus down to the park
I climbed over the gate and then I ran into the dark
he said he was an artist on his bench under a tree
he said he liked to see the stars but not on nights like these
two tortured souls digging a hole, when we need to cry
I wish I had your heart instead of mine, instead of mine
I've drunk too much to belong to you
I look to all the people to help me make it through
everyone is an artist, and they've all got things to say
they know the words to say it all, but just not what to say
just as night follows day, everything alive falls into decay
that's why I wish I had your heart, instead of mine
yes, I wish I had your heart instead of mine
posted by beautiful at 4:10 am
Obsessions
Black
Barbie
Suede
A Season in Hell
Tacky souvenirs
Saving Animals
Time Passing
English weather
Chocolate
Deborah Harry
Being on the front... of all the magazines... and all the glamour that goes with it...
A burning feeling
That feeling of power
Compulsion
No. 3
I have to check 3 times that the lights are out
I made sure I was the 3rd person in the queue here today
I was in an empty room... Kurt Cobain was holding his aching stomach... I sat next to him and gave him a glass of water... Then I woke up...
My room
Hygiene
Pain
Lips and eyes
Adriana Lima has the most beautiful eyes I've ever seen
And in my dream she wrote a poem to me... I forget the words...
Stephen Fry
Wrists
Marrying... Prince Harry... I am going to marry him... One day... Being a princess is the main issue...
Accessories
My hair
My weight
My shoes
In a moment... You can change from looking like a porn star... To looking like Audrey Hepburn...
Choking
Tie up, spikey, kitten-heeled
For a moment it's like I disappear
I dreamt... I slept with Chloe Sevigny once...
One leg is shorter than the other... but she's lush...
White is perfect... White absorbs my fears... It covers the imperfections...
A girl... I didn't know her but saw her a lot around my home town...
Ring tones
The way she moved and the way she walked... her long brown hair...
I know every word of the film
Perfume
I annoy my friends with the 'Heather confession'
It's taken over my life
My father thinks the whole thing's evil
Knee high boots
Jeff Buckley
I bought every CD and then felt very superior to everyone else
It's perfectly rational for me to stay up all night just in case he comes on TV
Because she was so perfect everything about me was wrong
Just to be famous
I've liked bands and things before but this is different
I don't mind my obsession. It makes me feel safe.
posted by beautiful at 9:37 pm
