I'm tired. It seems like a wimpy thing to say because technically I've not been to school in 5 months. Someone from secondary school commented that I look so tired now as opposed to when I was 16. Perhaps it has a lot to do with the fact that I've been rushing around, cramming hard and partying nonstop for the past 2 years. I'm officially tired out. Aged. I don't want to make new friends. I don't want to go to school. I don't want to 'catch up' or 'spend the night out' or go 'pubbing' - I want to stay home. One week at home. Never done that, and honestly the continous contact with my parents and brothers might kill me, but I wish I could do it. I wish I had one week. I want to be free.

You
If we're going to call each other good friends, and spend time together, then I want it to be because there's trust, and not because other people automatically lump us together, or because it's the done thing. And if keeping in touch is going to just involve updates on physical ongoings, then I'm not interested. I can bloody buy myself any book and read it there. Perhaps I expect this to be too perfect. We do fight, which is only normal. However it matters if you don't trust me enough to tell me things you tell others. It says a lot about you and me. You might settle for less. But I don't.

posted by beautiful at 8:58 am

Why have I not been updating my blog?

posted by beautiful at 10:46 pm